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You are persistently persecuted by persistence.   You have been moving daily, but tragically, the progression is not reflecting. Your forward movement is neither progression nor trajectory now but it used to be though not now. You are not quitting neither are you throwing in the towel but you have done more than and all you can with the meager you never had and produced so much of what it is. However it is not much of it, is it? Release your grip on an ending whose duration has elapsed that is now ended and is now living in the current time as if it is now due to you. If you do not it will end you as well only that your ending will be prolonged and if it is prolonged it does not mean that it will end in a new beginning just the same ending in a different time frame and circumstances that will birth another ending that will be nothing new expect of the ending. Others have begun new things and are progressing towards the end of these new beginnings then here you are floating in the abyss

You have burnt a harvest whose seedlings you have not yet planted due to your actions. You were aware of the consequences of your desires but you pursued them with a lustful purpose. You were enlightened of the consequences of your desires but you pursued them with a lustful purpose. Now you are tormented by the thought that all you slaved yourself to build to emancipate yourself is coming to crumble due to the actions of your liberal will. It would have been better for you to be consumed as a slave than as an individual who slaved for emancipation, got it then demarcated themself at the power of the liberal will in their hands. Isn't it better for you to be clawed by the fire of your actions than for the harvest to be razed by the fire due to your actions? Why would the harvest be held accountable for your actions and not you? It would have been better if you lost yourself then posses what you slaved for. Than to have yourself to yourself then lose all you lost yourself to gain. 

  You faithfully believed during its gestation that it would birth to life but now when you look back it was a stillbirth at fertilization. You excavated relationships you had built so that you could sow in the same land seedlings that would blossom to form a foundation that would replace the roots of the relationships you had uprooted. You have persevered but you and I ask yourself as much as I question myself, "And Then?" Have you not persecuted yourself and then cynically labeled it perseverance? There is a wording similarity between persecution and perseverance, read the two words again, perseverance and persecution. Could you have not succeeded, grown, disappointed, rejected and troubled if you had sorely staggered down this assertive 'assertionistive' 'decision' without uprooting the relationships you had built, for as you uprooted them you saw milled yourself as well for you were branched to them.  And Then!  Then and?  And Then?  So tell us now, "

This Apology shall never bridge us for one of us needs the bridging, thus it is a selfish apology. I apologize for my intentions were never to be apologetic but to come out of the sorry state of a person I was so that I would not be sympathetic and insecure towards the genuine affection you impounded into me despite your brokenness in the hope that we could all grow and then mature. Tragically I found myself desiring to be ahead of time so that I could become better for you. How honest is it I apologize to the one who excessed my complex inferiorities after and during plagues of complex inferiorities? Whose complex inferiorities were they? I still don’t believe that I was wrong or that I ever will be wrong but the guilty conscience erodes me now than it torments me. I had to, not that I knew I would or it would elapse the way it did without fruition but it definitely will in the time to come. Maybe when it comes to fruition in the time to come my apology will be of weight yet or but I

  You were the faith that intelligence outweighs wisdom and now you have become the hope that wisdom can be purchased for a price. Was the selling price worth it? The buying price was of value though inappropriate to the selling price. The worth that you have is invaluable now though of extreme monetary importance. Maybe if you had your soul, with the worth that you have now it would have been financially of value. The disappointment, insecurities, rejection, trouble, and opposition to your position when building this soul does it outweigh or equate to the comfort of riches that you now possess which devour you the more they grow to become wealthy in value as well as shatter you as their worth increases. You never sold your soul, oh dear ‘soul sellout’ you bribed your soul out. You smile together with them as they weep in laughter over you simultaneously. Now they have the thought that can be invested to become a belief that they can bribe the soul maker to be in the land of the righte

Does the illumination of the woke blind the enlightened and the enlightenment? A new revelation, being enlightened is not being woke, for you can be enlightened and still not be woke though you can never be woke and have no enlightenment for being woke is a supernatural level beyond enlightenment that the enlightened cannot hold to a deep reverence for it is beyond and above the source of that which enlightens them. I am woke enough and full to the brim to stand then act than advocate for social justice though I do not believe in nor support socialism. I pay the price of being woke for I am not woke for myself alone but for the sleeping dead who if awakened will be woke but will be the woke dead or walking dead. Isn’t it better that they be the woken dead than the walking dead but who am I to declare myself woke and them the walking dead if I do not have the substance then accolades to prove that I am woke to the walking dead? You are the only one with a revelation that has a guarantee