A..sex..ual? Asexual!

 They could love you but not be sexually attracted to you but that is them or maybe it's you and some would never love you but give you sex though not out of sexual attraction, isn't it a tragedy that you have met the former than the later now you are identifying yourself as 'a..sex...ual'/ asexual due to the former; however I am not in support of the latter because it is the fear of the consequences of sex that have made you 'a..sex...ual'! Asexual? Now you identify your sexuality by your situation. You are single, alone and neither loved nor infatuated the same way you cannot love nor infatuate but struggle to lust, so what sexuality can you identify yourself with than by; 'a..sex...ual' ? Asexual! You are mesmerizingly enticed by the melting attraction of the opposite sex but are not attracted to it or cannot. In the same way, anyone can see something they lust for but cannot love to have, but who would lust after you if you cannot love yourself? Just because you are not loved and not emitting romantic passion then struggling to lust as well as being sexually protective of yourself does not mean you are asexual. Does it? 

Now you identify your sexuality by your situation. You are not having sex, never had sex, and never been in a relationship ever since......and that ever since has become a duration of between forever and eternity. Now your coldness has increased in temperature as you become more solid in your 'a..s..exual' sexuality as you do not want to light a fire that will burn you. To protect yourself from the consequences of the after-effects of sex you have denied yourself sex, rejected your sexuality, and neither do you identify as celibate. 

You are mesmerizingly enticed by the melting attraction of the opposite sex but are not attracted to it or maybe you cannot. In the same way, anyone can see something they lust for but cannot love to have, but who would lust after you if you cannot love yourself? You cannot love yourself as a man or a woman or by any gender you can identify. You have been alone longer than you have been single and have been lonelier weigh more than you have been in relationships. You are single, alone and neither loved nor infatuated the same way you cannot love nor infatuate but struggle to lust, so what sexuality can you identify yourself with than by; 'a..sex...ual' ? Asexual? 

You are protective of your sexuality or you are afraid to identify by the sexuality you have gendered yourself. What is your sexuality? 'A..sex..ual'? Asexual! What is your gender? A..s..exual? Asexual! How is that a gender? How is sexual preference a gender? If sexual preference is gender then how are you being  'a..sex...ual' or asexual a gender when there is no sexual preference in your 'a..s..exual'/asexuality? 

Just because you are not loved and not emitting romantic passion then struggling to lust as well as being sexually protective of yourself does not mean you are asexual. Does it? If your relationship status is single does it equate to you cannot be loved and cannot love though you can be loved but not reciprocate then love and be rejected but your love accepted? So with this, you can love yourself so that you can be loved but since you cannot lust after yourself then definitely no one will love you, for to be loved first you must be lusted upon and with this predicament of struggling to lust after yourself then who will be sexually attracted to you. 'A..sex..ual' people will be attracted to you. How many people don't you know that are in love and have spouses but are not sexual intimate are they asexual? 

The lonelier you are getting, the colder you are becoming but it is cheap to light a fire that will melt you though that fire will make you lonelier, shallower, and empty as it warms you. Are you 'a..s..exual' because of the consequences of sexual intimacy like spiritual soul ties or you are 'a..s..exual' because you believe a lie that can be repented into a truth? A lie that you are unattractive thus why you are single and cannot continue identifying as single then are not comfortable with identifying with an extension of gender identities constructed after sexual preferences hence you identify as 'a..sex...ual'  Asexual!

Why would you extremely labor to improve yourself if you cannot love yourself in return? Are you not slaving to emancipate yourself to liberty rather than democratic independence? Maybe they do not love nor lust after you because you don't do the same for yourself? They could love you but not be sexually attracted to you but that is them or maybe it's you and some would never love you but give you sex though not out of sexual attraction, isn't it a tragedy that you have met the former than the later now you are identifying yourself as 'a..sex..ual' /asexual! due to the former, however, I am not in support of the latter because it is the fear of the consequences of sex that have made you 'a..sex..ual'......asexual?

So now no one can guilt shame you because you are single in terms of love relationships. For you are 'a..sex...ual' ' or asexual. Struggling with lust can no longer be a sin for you because you 'a..sex...ual'' or asexual. How could you struggle with lust if you are  'a..sex...ual'....asexual? You thought if you become lonelier in your singleness you would become isolated than separated from the lust of the flesh hence sexually purifying yourself to become 'a..sex...ual' /asexual then here you are questioning if you are asexual or if you still are 'a..sex..ual'. 

Are you a man or a woman? Were you born male or female? Were you raised as a boy or a girl and identify by how you were raised through gender constructiveness? What is your sexuality? What is the sexual gender you identify with? Sexual gender? No what is your gender then what is your sexual preference? Are single, a..sex...ual or asexual? A..s.ex..ual? Asexual!