You

You have driven out its conscience so that its bitter human nature becomes its conscience and tragically your logic thought of it with a cent and sense too short, now it is numb to its self-inflicted pain. The purpose is greater than the pain but You made the pain manifest into bitterness and made it accept rejection externally and then internally for You rejected it for it to accept Your provision. You decided to hold its hand remotely now it uses that remoteness to capture and choke You from a distance.

You feel that you should hold yourself to account for what transpired. You think that you must be convicted for what is happening. You contemplate that you are the fault for what continues to falter yet whether You hold yourself to account, conviction, or a fault. You are aware that you are neither the catalyst nor enzyme to the eternal tragedy but you are just a tissue of the science and You are devouring yourself because the catalyst that is the enzyme holds You to conviction than to account for engineering it to be a distorted science instead of commercializing it as an art. Now it engineers to feed its void soul on your bitterly-traumatized self. You! you! YOU!

How immature of me, (it) to hold You to account for my shortcomings, when your account was to guarantee me that I would never fall short. Only realized, my shortcomings when I could not hold myself to account and decided to convict You of my shortcomings and coming short, for if You were present my shortcomings would have been medium. How immature of me and how irresponsible of You! Whose to hold the other to account, the irresponsible or the immature one? Now You cry foul and mourn wolf that You were responsible for your duties and executed your entitlement well yet aware that You executed the mandate and forsook the responsibilities

. Who holds to account the highest Judge of the land and what governs the law? You know culturally and spiritually You cannot be held to account so there is no conviction of the calamities you blessed in your absence and unaware of yet now they torment You. You have an assertion of how the calamities came to be though your cultural and spiritual entitlement makes You simultaneously underlook, overlook and scoff at the causes and eternal situation at hand. You! you! YOU!

Look at what You have made. Can you even envision that You have engineered? If You can paint and sculpt the vision of that You have constructed, then You have a revelation of that which You have formed yet are blind to it though not numb to the pain it smiles at You. You have driven out its conscience so that its bitter human nature becomes its conscience and tragically your logic thought of it a cent and sense too short, now it is numb to its self-inflicted pain. Then you mercifully think that it is aware of the tremors it feeds You and excretes out of You.

You could have been its shield tragically You chose to aid the barrier that pushed it back and drove it to turmoil. How would You know that You chose to aid the barrier? Even if You did know that You chose to aid the barrier, who would hold You to account? You? The purpose is greater than the pain but You made the pain manifest into bitterness and made it accept rejection externally and then internally for You rejected it for it to accept Your provision. Now what You provided and continue to source with good intentions further entrenches its bitterness deeper. How? Why? It is due to You that it is prepared to dismally survive an unfulfilled life in the atmosphere and climate of joy than to partake in the joy of the blessings by being able to forgive You. 

Do You see the revelation of what You have done? Can You comprehend and understand what it is? How Could You live with yourself aware that you are the trigger, catalyst, and enzyme to someone’s bitterness and grudge? Yes, You can. You can. You have and will continue to.

If only You could have had……. that would not have had…. You should have…… then they could never……. If You were…. truly when where they did what it probably could have….. but You chose to…. instead of deciding on a choice than an option now look what…… You will always be You even if You change, revolve, evolve, and resurrect. You! you! You!

It is because of what You could not do and it shall be due to that which You have done. You think You are aware of what went wrong yet You know You have a faltered assertion of what collapsed but what made it collapse is not how it collapsed and You tragically think the what is the how. How? You! You! YOU.