Self Investment

See how the heresy of jealousy plagued you before you even began to have self-investment in yourself? How is the heresy of the jealousy loathed at self-investment to be selfish like the abomination that jealousy is? You cannot stretch your arm and be the hand that gives for you will bless those who are being devoured by the cancer of jealousy over your self-investment propagated as selfishness. So even with your grace if you are to invest in them their cancer of jealousy will miraculously transfigure into the bacteria of greed then they will erode the investment you seeded into them to develop themselves and still echo out the venom that you are selfish and you clothe your selfishness with self-investment. At best I still premeditate and contemplate stretching my hand and being the one who is humble enough to later mourn, “They shredded my hand that was their provision when they had no revelation, now without my hand they have a blind vision. I was invested in self-investing in them.”

You are not selfish nor are you self-centered. You invested so much and a lot into yourself with no investment at the time of self-investment. Now you are well invested and reaping the profits of your self-investment for yourself as you were the only investor and the rest who are the others were liabilities to your investments hence you cannot feed them on the harvest of your self-investments for they will become expenses in your return profit. Now you cannot stretch your hand to invest in others nor help them for you never saw them invest in the capital that they need to be injected into them. The capital is you. How could one partake of profits they never slaved for nor financially invested in? Look at yourself now. No, adore yourself and the monument that you have designed yourself to become. By yourself for yourself. You designed yourself so that you could be valuable to yourself and when you become of worth unto yourself you began to be tormented by the cynicism that you are self-loving and a product of selfishness when the preachers of cynicism were jealous to confess that what you did and continue to do is self-investment if not self-actualization. 

If you had not self-invested in yourself, you would be either a victim of the selfish-self-centered heresy or the messenger and medium of it. Realize why you cannot stretch your hand to invest in others. Take the profits and re-invest into yourself until it evolves from a cycle to a culture then you outgrow the heresy that you are selfish.

How is building yourself selfish? Since when did investing in one’s growth evolve into self-centeredness? See how the heresy of the jealous plagued you before you even began to have self-investment in yourself? How is the heresy of the jealous loathed at self-investment to be selfish like the abomination that jealousy is? You cannot stretch your arm and be the hand that gives for you will bless those who are being devoured by the cancer of jealousy over your self-investment propagated as selfishness. So even with your grace if you are to invest in them their cancer of jealousy will miraculously transfigure into the bacteria of greed then they will erode the investment you seeded into them to develop themselves and still echo out the venom that you are selfish and you clothe your selfishness with self-investment. You invested in yourself with what you had that was the close equivalent to nothing when you invested it in yourself it was digested with a guarantee to slightly kill your hunger but no affirmation that it would manifest and then grow. 

So how could they be jealous of the profit not at the pain of my self-investment? They are jealous of what I am and do not desire to be what they must be. They are jealous of me and I envy myself for how I invested in myself and then designed myself beyond being built. At best I still premeditate and contemplate stretching my hand and being the one who is humble enough to later mourn, “They shredded my hand that was their provision when they had no revelation, now without my hand they have a blind vision. I was invested in self-investing in them.”               

You did it (self-investment) for you not for them now they envy you to be for them and they still decide to be not for you. You did it for you? People live for other people yet you are doing something for yourself? How could you do something for yourself? Does doing something for yourself translate to being selfish? Doing something for yourself that is in your best interests is the hybrid seed of all self-centeredness. Well, at least you did it for yourself in your best interests and not in greed pursuing avarice. Did I self-invest in myself in the desire of greed? 

How could I invest in myself with avarice being the purpose, for if it was then my investments would have been devoured? Should I feel sympathetic for myself for building myself using the micro of the meager scraps that profited to be the anchor of the excess? Why should I feel sympathetic for my profitable self-investment, because some are simultaneously jealous and loathe my self-investment when they are the cancerous virus of a bacteria unto their self-investment that is plagued by self-pity-self-doubt, insecurity, and lack of obsession for ruthlessness.