Shortfall Redemption

 Tragically he found himself doing it to redeem himself than for the cause. The fulfillment of redemption was swallowed by the craving for the cause. He ironically and with satire began to question himself and his redemption whilst he took a smoke mentally than physically. Was he given a shortcoming opportunity for redemption then came up short of redemption or came up short of redemption after being given a lengthy opportunity that he exposed well but was blind to the exposure for he expected revenge in place of redemption? What he visualized he would feel when he got redeemed was not how he felt when he redeemed himself, and then he tried to dismally adjust the redemption to what he visualized which pushed him into a deep decadence for what he hoped he would feel and what he felt was faithless. Hence he saw the redemption to be shortfall redemption. He attempted to falsely comfort himself whilst the grief of shortfall redemption mourned him to despair.

He felt that he had been redeemed but was not able to exploit the redemption the way he had planned to. It was another opportunity that he took a chance at and was able to redeem himself though he felt unsatisfied. It was not that he felt short at redeeming himself but thought he fell whilst redeeming himself yet he managed to get the job done and still felt unsatisfied. He had done it for redemption and not for the sake or cause of doing it when what he desired and lurked was doing it for a cause and not to redeem himself. Tragically he found himself doing it to redeem himself than for the cause. The fulfillment of redemption was swallowed by the craving for a cause. What he needed to achieve was to be done for a cause than for the cause of redemption for redemption has no cause and false fulfillment yet it is hype. For that hype has no cause, his redemption was and will always be shortfall redemption.

He began to examine himself through his redemption and wondered if he would pass his examination. Knew he was redeemed but could not feel nor appreciate it. He ironically and with satire began to question himself whilst he swallowed a smoke mentally than physically, “Are you redeemed now? Did you become redeemed the way you desired? Did you redeem yourself the way you lurked? Is your redemption a shortfall or fulfilling? You cannot even attempt to answer one of those questions for you do not understand the context of the question. It was redemption you wanted and you got it yet it is still unsatisfactory to you. Did you need vengeance or redemption? Maybe you were hoping on being allowed to avenge than a chance to redeem yourself, no wonder why you feel that your redemption is a shortfall. Can you accept the outcome of redemption more than the fruits of revenge that you were hoping you would receive? Then maybe you would not be questioning yourself. On another different angle maybe it is not the fruits of revenge you were expecting to get but you had the heart of revenge within that you were feeding on to fuel your redemption and when you fueled your redemption with revenge the fruits of redemption could not satisfy the appetite of revenge. Did you want to redeem yourself or revenge yourself for coming up short on the previous opportunity? You have successfully achieved to not fail though you fell whilst achieving your success yet somehow you feel like a failure. What you redeem yourself from was it what you needed or you redeem yourself for the sake of redemption so that you can massage yourself on the back and say to yourself, “Ah! There it is, my comeback” when you know it is coming from a void to nothing. 

What he hoped for had happened but wondered if it was what he desired. He had been saved but contemplated if he lusted to be served than saved. Given a chance once more to make the best of it when what he lurked was to have an opportunity to give opportunities then maybe he would give himself an opportunity that he would not be shortcoming when it was an opportunity for redemption. So that he would not be tormented by shortfall redemption. Was he given a shortcoming opportunity for redemption or came up short of redemption after being given a lengthy opportunity that he exposed well but was blind to the exposure for he expected revenge in place of redemption? What he visualized he would feel when he got redemption was not how he felt when he redeemed himself then he tried to adjust the redemption to what he visualized which pushed him into a deep decadence and saw the redemption to be shortfall redemption. He attempted to falsely comfort himself whilst the grief of shortfall redemption mourned him to despair, “At least you were redeemed to live another day without a troubled conscience. The outcome of redemption should not outweigh the priceless value of redemption. You overdid redemption but the accolades and the attribution for you outdoing yourself in redemption does not outdo itself to a point whereby you are satisfied or fulfilled with it. You managed to redeem yourself from your previous tragedy but still, you are hoping you get a chance to be in your previous tragedy so that you amend the tragedy for it to come out satisfying to you which is impossible for you cannot redeem your past but you are seeking satisfaction from your past to a point whereby if you are redeemed of your past to structure the future the satisfaction of that redemption comes up short for your desire to redeem the past than to exploit the present and future.”