Aftermath

To Me

You regret it yet you were delighted in its unjust. You had to note that there was a need for it, neither was it want but a scripted destiny. You wanted to be independent then you became liberal now you desire to be partially chained again. You were anticipating results then you got an aftermath that was distant from an outcome. Maybe if you continuously indulge in it you won't have to be tormented by the aftermath hence the aftermath just becomes a norm. A regular outcome, even though there is nothing regular about it now but soon it will be. When you were chained physically yet mentally liberated you could see the process but not the aftermath that came after the results. Indeed, it is desirable as you thought it would be yet not pleasurable as you anticipated it to be. It is your first time, it's the third time, the seventh time, the nineteenth time, the sixtieth time. If you still can count how many times then indeed the aftermath will haunt you until you cannot take into account how many times. When it begins it torments you, and you begin to dread when it is over it haunts you yet during the process it pleasures you. You can deal with the consequences yet not the aftermath. 

From Me