Self Envy

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To Me

This is what you desired to be, isn't it? To be like that creature. Now you are it but you are still in envy of it. Do you now see how you are just like it but you are not it? You envied being like it not that you loved being it. You are applauded for your actions yet you can not take responsibility for them. From where you stood looking at it with envy and from where you stand now envisioning it and acting like it but not being it, how is the experience treating you and what is the difference? Do you not envy your former self? Not in the aspect nor sense of envying it because you desire to be like your former self but because you are now what you envied, hence you are now enlightened that it is not what you desired to be but that which you envied to be. Your former self out of ignorance lacked passion for a self-drive which resulted in envying to becoming what you are now but you can enlighten your former self on how horrible it is becoming and being what you envied. You are happy but not satisfied, in high spirits yet not joyous and in silence yet with no peace. 


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