Free Tormented Soul

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To Me 

How does it feel now, to be free yet still tormented? To have pleasure yet victimized by how you got it? You now have all the physical pleasure that you desire when it was an emotional and moral pleasure you needed. To be liberated from overthinking yet still shackled to the burden of being an acute critical thinker and 'philosopher'. To be in the fast lane, pleasuring your inner and secret desires yet still tormented by what will be the outcome? To be free from mental slavery yet still a victim of psychological warfare. To still have self-doubt when you are less than half a step away from victory. Let me ask you, how it feels to seek happiness when you either stopped seeking joy or failed to find true happiness? Your source of happiness is that which you used to fear, that which you used to despise, that which you used to hate than dislike. Now you are happy yet still in fear. How does it feel to be a wildfire and you are consuming yourself in the process? You are now what you imagined to be but it is distant from what you desired to be. You still are tormented by a guilty conscience over what makes you liberated. You sold your soul and spirit to be liberated mentally yet the pleasure to be satisfied desires soul, spirit, and mind to be one. You are satisfied by what you have become and are to become yet your stare and their gaze towards you make you feel disgusted with what you are. You are a free tormented soul but you are free.


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