Inability In Disability

"You assist us not to help us but to cushion your ego. You have eyes but you can not envision that though you are able-bodied you are crippled within all that you can do. Ask yourself, what is more of a blessing between the two, to be physically disabled yet having a critical outstanding mind or to be able-bodied but crippled in mind."

They did not say I could not do it, they blessed me with an anointed and divine revelation that I couldn't achieve it. After all, actions not only speak louder than words but communicate an indigestible naked truth. I believe I am more than talented, I am gifted but cursed by the inability that comes with disability. 

If I could stand by the sidelines it would have been a blessing but I am entitled to watch from behind, hence I fail to critically observe what I am watching. If I were on the sidelines, I could revolutionize that which I am observing without any actions involved. To be blessed with a gift that is radically devoured by disability. When I communicate to an audience or an individual they pay attention to my words but fail to decode the message due to how the sender is structured. My disability is believed to make me less privileged, hence the outcome of my work needs aids to be standard. Even though it is standard, it is viewed to be mediocre due to being a product of a disabled person. If it is appreciated, it is so due to being a product of a disabled person with no constructive criticism but sympathetic boot-licking that gets my feet wet in saliva. Disabled people are people too and humans too. Are they not? It's news when a disabled person does that which an able-bodied person can do. I wonder if it's breaking news if an able-bodied person becomes disabled. I toss and fall in my sleep when I envision that which I am yet to become but do not have a right to become, even though I have the right to life I am not guaranteed that life. I might be disabled but I am not a charity case, though I will appreciate your charity if it is from a spiritual point and not a human perspective. If it is from a human perspective, it is due to the inability you see in my disability. 

                                    

You just had to give us the Paralympics, didn't you? Make us compete on our own as if we are not identical to you. You feel remorse for us as if you are not ashamed of yourselves. You assist us not to help us but to cushion your ego. You have eyes but you can not envision that even though you are able-bodied you are crippled within all that you can do. You use us for political leverage and economic scams disguised as corporate social responsibility. Do you think we are a burden to those who are responsible for our well-being or we are irresponsible to take care of ourselves? Hence we become a 'corporate social responsibility' to you. We are not saying we do not need your help or assistance but do you think your help or assistance is genuine? Out of 10, how many of us get college degrees? Out of 10 no out of 1, how many of us become senators? Out of 10 no out of zero, how many of us become decorated war heroes or comrades? 

You empower us then you charge yourselves from us by draining away that power. We are first preferences not due to our qualifications but our condition, if we are first preferences due to our qualifications we are disqualified due to our condition. I ask myself a question and expect an answer from you, I ask that was Stephen Hawking, Stephen Hawking before he became paralyzed or after? I mercifully beg of you to look at me as me not as I appear. To greet me as a human not as a disabled person for you you are crippled in being able-bodied. Ask yourself, what is more of a blessing between the two, to be physically disabled yet have a critical outstanding mind or to be able-bodied but crippled in mind. 

I do not intend to be angry or violent, I just wish you would understand the pain that tortures me which can not be healed by painkillers nor cured by prayers. How can I love myself when your care for me is subjective? When your concern for me has no feelings. When I can do everything but you falsely convince yourselves that I can not for I am disabled. What then if I was both disabled and crippled would you even see me as a human? Would you even tell me of my human rights if I was both disabled and crippled, If I am in one category you tell me of my rights but you infringe on them utilizing not acting on them? Then you expect a disabled or crippled person to act on their rights? Your motivational talk for us the disabled and crippled communicates no motivation but motivates discrimination through the way you structure your message. We also do understand as well as able-bodied people.