Engaged To Myself

They were blinded by my charm and humbleness that they could not blow the smoke in front of the mirror to see clearly that I was painting a picture of love using my mind, if they could see they would not run away from me but opt to teleport into time and space. Just remember the pain you are inflicting on this woman in the absence of her conscience will be inflicted upon you in the presence of your conscience and the feeling will be different.

Women marry a man based on a man's financial status. That is a stereotype. Let us think of a man who is about to marry a woman not for love but for the love of finances. Let us view a man who is about to get engaged to a woman who can not give him children but social security. Let us read a story of a man who is about to walk down the aisle to tie the knot with a woman who has no hands, no arms, no legs and doubt has sexual reproductive organs that are productive. Just because he needs to save and serve his life. This begs the question, will his life be worth living after tying such a knot? Is he tying a knot or a hangman's noose around his neck? Here is his story as he narrates it to himself.

Conscience," The bills will be paid. The tax will be collected from her income, not mine. I finally get to drive a car on a full tank that I never have to pay for its expenses. I will be the only family responsible and her of course but her mmmm. She is just a breathing caucus, even her family has been aware of it since her birth. They are not marrying her off to me as they say they are. They are dumping their garbage on me with future reparations in terms of finances. Risk assessment I might put it. Good riddance to bad rubbish is a statement that they will comfort themselves with, that is true of course. One man's trash is another man's treasure they say, well I can not wait to use this treasure till it becomes trash in my eyes like the former (her parents). She will not be trash to dump, because she can be recycled till she loses value to me. Then from there, I send her back to the dumpster she came from. For what comes around goes around. The question that pains my mind is, what will people think about this deformed or weird marriage? Well, I care less as long as the bills are paid. After I can pay them on my own we can happily divorce. No collateral then, no children."

                                     

Love, "Is it love, or is it abuse? What if it were you? Taking advantage of a disabled vulnerable woman to save yourself from your insecurities. What makes you so sure that the family is dumping her on you? What type of parents would care for such a special child and then plan to dump her on a person like you? Wait, they were not aware of this side of you. They were so blinded by your charm and humbleness that they could not blow the smoke in front of the mirror to see clearly. They thought you loved her and did not care about the business marriage contract. That you felt entitled to her love and not her estate. Are you this disgusting of a human being? Do not ever think to yourself that you will learn to love her after tying the knot in such a context because you will not. For before the very beginning you have already laid out a vision to be unfaithful, to be a vulture, to be a male gold digger, a heart, and soul breaker. Hence doing the Devil's work where he has already overdone it himself. Have a heart and soul, do not walk away but run away from this unholy matrimony you are about to create."

Conscience, "If it were not for her family who brought the proposal, there wouldn't be such a weird event happening. Would you blame me for painting a picture of love using my mind? This was more than an arranged marriage but a contracted one. Here is what her parents thought about her before you and I judged me for being materialistic in marriage. Since she was the only daughter in the family who became the only child born with a disability, questions were much tenser behind closed doors. After birth, a mother who was looking forward to seeing her daughter walk down the aisle in the future only realized that her daughter can not stand on her own two feet in both ways, physically and mentally. A father who was hoping to protect and enlighten his daughter to only realize she needed none of that, for no harm would befall her in her state and no amount of wisdom nor education would change her either. Desperation, despair, and overthinking about the future of their daughter made them get her engaged to a man who was already engaged to himself by selling their own daughter's not-so-vulnerable soul. So they were just hoping that before they pass on they find someone, me of course who ties the knot with their deformed daughter and vow to protect, provide and 'love' her. No wonder why they handed me a business marriage contract to sign. Three of the interesting clauses on the contract out of the ten were as follows.

(i) For as long as you are married to our daughter we will give you half of our finances and not assets. 

(ii) Our daughter has an estate worth a quarter of our estate and whoever ties the knot with her, ties himself or herself to that estate. 

(iii) In the event of a divorce, whoever divorces our daughter will not only walk away with half of the 

estate but three-quarters of it. 

With such terms and conditions would you blame me for laying out a vision to be unfaithful, to be a vulture, to be a male gold digger, a heart and soul breaker, and a Devil's agent? Her parents had

already laid out that vision and all I had to do was tap into it. This deal was/is more tempting than the Devil's temptations. After I divorce their daughter and marry a real woman, I will make these parents devil parents and not godparents. Their daughter could not have a say, besides being disabled physically, her tongue and mind were paralyzed too. Let us not talk of the condition of her heart, shall we? For she has been shattered already in her vulnerability and silence. If she could have a say about

this, she would scream till the Heavens and Earth exchanged positions. If she could run away from this she would opt to disappear into time and space. Tragically, she never knew of love even when she was being showered with it. So divorce would never hurt her, even her parents knew. Just look at clause three (iii) of the contract. Believe me, the day after the wedding I will file for divorce and by GOD's grace by the time we are back from the Honey Moon, I will have an estate. After all, I am engaged to myself. Her disability has become an inability to be preyed upon. At least you will have something to celebrate and appreciate on #WorldDisabilityDay#. That is if your relationship gets that far 😂. Do you know what could be sick but entertaining at the same time? Making love to the woman you love whilst the one whom you are married to on contract terms is beside the two of you watching. After all, she can never know what is going on. For she does not know what it is."

Where is the love? If there was ever any. Where is the care for the disabled? Do you only care for them when they make you feel able-bodied? What will happen to you when the finances from the estate run out? Surely they will run out, for the way you have acquired them shows no logic and they will go to ruin without you having logical accountability for them. Sign the contract for your financial survival but just be aware with this money you will go from nothing to nothing https://ashermunashemutandiro.blogspot.com/2018/08/nothing-to-nothing.html?m=1

For it will not erase the pain. Just remember the pain you are inflicting on this disabled woman in the absence of her conscience will be inflicted upon you in the presence of your conscience and the feeling will be different.

Go ahead get engaged with yourself or run away for the better.