Myself

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I fear for myself
I fear myself
For what I have become
Never thought I would accept the position I am in
I used to despise what I am now
I used to fear it
But now I glorify it

The old me looks at the new me
The new me looks at the old me
It was bound to happen
But never thought it would happen
Just an imaginary wannabe thought
Becomes a reality
A reality I despise
I used to despise
Now I am it

From chocolate cake to weed cake
From Coca-Cola to cocaine
From church to the brothel
From a single life to a double life

They warned me.
I had to see if the warning was real
Real or just a warning
A conspiracy theory
This is what I despised
What I feared
I look at it now
It is me
I am now what I feared

                                  


     









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