Expectations

What is expected of me? By who? Then why? Finally for what? If I fail to meet these expectations is the blame put on me and am I labeled a failure? Or the element of failing is bestowed upon those who were expecting from me? Why should they even expect me to conform to their expectations? Due to them having high hopes for me which is reflected by their level of expectations of me. What about themselves? They seem to have low expectations for themselves. Which is reflected by the type of lives they lead. Their prayer is I surpass them by their expectations, their practicality and not mine.

They once told me, "You need to be well behaved, it is expected of you." I never asked for who or for what. Did their lives reflect they were well-behaved individuals? No. How could a pair of ill-behaved and mannerless parents expect their child to take heed of the good advice they gave which they could not put into action themselves?

My parents were expecting me to be a good child in the simple sense. What was I expecting for myself then? I was expecting that I would never become like them. The best way was not to expect too much from them and not to take into account what they said. What they were expecting from me, they did not deserve it. Why? My parents were below the level of what they were expecting of me. They seemed to not have expectations for their personal lives.

You cannot expect me to be rich if I come from a poor background. Can you? You cannot expect me to be educated if I am illiterate. Can you? Can you expect a donkey to have the ability of a horse?

If I am to fail to meet the expectations of my parents then it will be a double failure for them. How? Firstly, they failed to have a blueprint of their expectations that they could execute. Secondly, I am to fail to meet their expectations because I am not them and I cannot deliver the element of expectation to them because they do not understand the context of it. It is not visible in their own lives. Can a poor mother not motivate her son to be rich because she is not rich? My expectations versus theirs.

They expect me to live in a mansion because it will reflect a glorious lifestyle. Am I able enough to pull through to reach this glorious lifestyle? Will this mansion be a result of my expectations or theirs? They could not get a mansion themselves. Then why are they putting their burden on me? I have not come up with my vision because my mind is full of theirs. My vision is blurred, and I am struggling to have one. Of what I want because my parents have put theirs in place of mine if they know best.

The expectations they have set for me are just too high to reach. I am wondering what type of mechanism I can use to get to these expectations. If we had a conversation first before they set the level of the bar of expectations, I would have negotiated for them to reduce the level. Some of these things are just practically impossible for people of my color.

When I look at them, I just see them as a pair of individuals expecting way too much than they deserve. When they look at me, they see an individual who's going give them the keys to the kingdom they wished to have been in. Truth, the ball is in my court. I get to decide what they should expect from me. Am I being rebellious toward my parents?

So can I build up my expectations? Can I accomplish them without failing to deliver? I was bound to fail on delivering my parents' expectations. I cannot fail mine because they were made by me. It is one thing to fail the expectations set before you but a horrible experience to fail the expectations you made for yourself. For you will have no one to blame but yourself. It is better to criticize yourself over your decisions and actions than to be critiqued for outcomes that you failed to meet that were not made by you.

They expected Jesus Christ to be a political messiah but he became otherwise and he disappointed their expectations. Which resulted in them crucifying him for failing to deliver. Yet he delivered his expectations besides those bestowed upon him.

We expect the criminal justice system to serve us fair justice. What do we do when justice is unfair and corrupt? What does the criminal justice system expect of us when it does not deliver to our expectations? Of fair and unfair justice. Do we rebel? We put matters in our own hands and put into effect measures that will bring the expectations we expected. Which a system we trusted failed to deliver to us. Should we wait and expect it to deliver as expected? If it fails our expectations once more then what?

Society expects me to be a community-related individual. Putting in work and sacrifice for the community or society. For what? Why? No individual can please everyone. They have expectations of me. What about the expectations I have for them? Each of them owes me since I am part of society. Do they? One of the many things expected of me is taking care of the less privileged in society. How then will I expect the less privileged to take care of me, if they are less privileged? Simple, no two days are alike.

We burden ourselves with expectations that cannot relate to our context. Why? Because most of the time when we are told what is expected of us, we even ask ourselves why. Do you ever ask yourself why you did not think of this expectation before or currently? You had to be told. Whose agenda is this expectation serving the most? If you never thought of it, then it is not serving your expectations. It is serving someone else.

The quality of life expectations could outweigh a number of expectations. Only if these expectations are personally brought up by an individual.